ive moved my personal blog.hehs.
pls do visit my blogshop spreesplash.blogspot (cilckclick).
and let your friends know about it!
spanks (:

i want you in my arms ;
- 1:00 PM

because life finally seems too painful to live.

i want you in my arms ;
- 9:45 AM

sorry. i wrote d post when i was very angry.but i think u misunderstood me. im not asking for any attention from grandparents. DID I MENTION ANYTHING ABOUT ATTENTION? it's about how grandpa is being treated. he's not a driver and i do not need him to drive me around for your info. i admit that i don't know much about your family, but what i commented on is what i see with my eyes and what i feel. and i don't think you know much about your own family, needless to say my family. so why question me this way when every family has its own problems. And my family isn't super rich like you've said but are there when grandparents need d doctor at mid-nights and we don't use them.


if you step away and view, ur comments are being very biased,baseless and self-centred. PLUS. i think u have misunderstood me very badly. and ur comments really don't make sense. if u're disappointed reading my blog, let's jus say, im extremely disappointed at urs. and shocked.you're ranting on things i did not even mention about. i dun care about ur bf's money or how u spend it really as long as it doesn't affect us. i don't care that you don't work if that is your way of 'sit back and enjoy the relationship'. i admit that i may be harsh, but don't u think that it doesn't make sense to be a spendthrift when it could do better to help your parents so they could at least pay grandparents? that's all im saying. if you don't like ppl to be bothered in your life, i won't.and im not.


and it isn't two sidedness. i think, these issues are different from issues concerning our relationship or characters hence didnt show it to u cos i still treat u as my best cousin. which is why i still paid for your supper during cny when u came with my friends and i. without you realizing .such a long post to countract my few words. i don't know the purpose. but it's very hurting, especially how u twist my words.


kins are important but never take them for granted. as in, kins should help one another but they are not to be taken for granted. they are too precious.

i want you in my arms ;
- 5:15 AM

hehs. went on a sudden hiatus. didnt meant to take such a long break. budden, ive decided to move my blog add cus it's to my knowledge that a certain person is reading my blog, still. although i think she's has nothing better to do and he was insane to have given her my blog add, i karn help but feel intruded. so dear friends, new blog add shall be revealed soon when it's done with renovations (: loves!

i want you in my arms ;
- 8:42 AM

was working at the asia tv forum. damns tiring. andden now im sick. sorethroat, fever, flu and busy playing catchings with my running nose.

d event was held in shangri-la. basically everyone comes to the forum to sell and buy tv programs and films. it was good exposure, esp. since d level im in charge of is french level (read: an influx of good-looking people). and i gt this really nice bookmark from a goodlooking frenchman. hehs.
except that i didnt have as much fun workings as i had workings in icmat. d icmat bunch of frens are just so different from this bunch of kids i had to work with. quoting yijoons ' they really very bu dong shi and very childish.' which i reallyreally agree. i hope i nevers see them again.

im super angry with an auntie. she 'borrowed' our organ saying she will buy from us if she found it okies after 'testing' it. but she borrowed it for so manymanymany years without any intention of returning it/buying it from us. all these i still can accept.den suddenly her daughter doesn't wana learn anymore, she asked my grandpa to move it back to my house. wths. it's bad enough that u always treat granpa like a driver now u think he is a mover? do u realize how old he is alreadys?senseless.

i want you in my arms ;
- 3:45 AM

i have so many things to say.. i duno where to start.

(1) i karn stand myself for being such a stupid idiot. for taking the wrong step. for making the wrong decision. again.

(2) i hate the questioning stares of people. and i am not a 'school dropout.'

(3) i hate my current floating status. smu don't approve d leave of absence, so if i want a transfer, i have to take the shittes exams in smu knowing that i karn transfer credits for those smu mods. then again, i don't mind entering next academic year, so should i withdraw now and find work? i don't even know if i should enter next academic year cus apparently i've missed quite alot of things..budden i dunwana be laggings another sem.omgs

(4) i've to settle the tfl, the bank side, smu side, nus side. omgsomgs. and i am determined to pay d 4000 over bucks back to my daddy. cus it is my own wrong decision. my own. arghs. why is smu fees so friggin expensive.

(5) there are ALOT of reasons for me wanting leave smu. it's not all that shallow. trust me. i tried very hard. very very hard to try to love the school. i will devote an entire post to why i wana leave smu even. im tired of explaining. i karn stand it when ppl think it's all because of the stress and that i karn adapt. it's not. and it's definitely not d main point. i dislike the system. dislike how a large proportion of our grades are left to chance. dislike being forced to do d many core mods that ive no interest in. dislike not being able to do what i like. dislike looking at ppl fighting to speak just for d sake of class participation..dislike..and really, one have to experience it yourself to understand. im sick of hearing hurtful sweeping remarks.

(6) im actually envious of my frens taking the exams now. im going through d roller coaster, all d trouble.. just to start all over again, knowing fully well i could have been there in d first place.

(7) ive too many people to answer to. and it's not even their education. it's mine.

(8) i don't even know which step to take now.

still, i love my frens. for all d support..reallyreally. all d best for d exams. and i miss u all loads :(

where are u when i needed you..so badly? you promised to be there..but you were never.

i want you in my arms ;
- 11:04 PM

im scared.

i want you in my arms ;
- 11:59 PM